Thursday, September 18, 2008

Should be Sleeping

I probably should be sleeping right now; between practice in the mornings and my back keeping me from sleeping at night, I've been pretty tired all week. Oh, before I ramble on let me update you all by saying that my back is doing much better. I'm not quite at 100% and some positions catch me painfully off guard, but the improvement in the last 60 hours is quite remarkable. Thank you, Dr. Massengale.

Moving on... do you ever hate the process of self-reflection? After a frustrating evening of feeling under-appreciated and misunderstood, I came home to vent to my mom. I think she was being sincere and helpful when she commented, "The only person you have to answer to is the one in the mirror." But now I can't stop thinking about the fact that if I'm being truthful, I have so much I need to be improving on right now. And outside criticism is only this painful because it's ringing true on some level.

Anyway, I was just thinking and thought I'd hash out some feelings in words. Thanks to friends and family that patiently wait out my tears and irrationalities. Life is good, just a little bumpy sometimes. :)


Jen said...

So sorry that some people are jerks. Hang in there.

Adiel said...

You already know my feelings on this, but your mom is wise woman!

Pj.steph said...

Should I beat someone up? Go to sleep already and I'll just take care of it. I'm fiesty! haha I know I just made you laugh, so don't even pretend I didn't!

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear that, I hope your week goes better! Everyone has bad moments in life, but I can just say they really suck!! But as always they pass in time!